1st Birthday Pressure

So, as you may know (but probably don't) my daughter has a 1st birthday coming up here in a few months. On October 9th, 2013 it will be a year since she has come into our lives. So, naturally, various people started asking me about the "big one" about 3 months ago. Figuring I had plenty of time, and knowing that I want to throw a low key, close family type of bash, I laughed it off. And I continued to put if off until just now. Now, with less than 2 full months before the party, I'm panicking. With the rise of Pintrest, and hearing (reading?) about the collective grand plans on various blogs and thebump.com, I'm starting to feel like my humble little party just won't cut it.

So I'm making the invitations. And a banner. Oh, and little thank you tags to add to the favors. I'm suddenly putting a ton of pressure on myself where there was none before. It's all making me think, "will it be good enough? Will I be good enough?" And I know rationally that I'm just putting pressure on myself. I'm sure that no matter what we do for her birthday, Cora will love it. I just can't shake the feeling that it won't be ENOUGH.

There was really no point to this post. Just throwing some of my bad feelings about myself out to the interwebz to hopefully get it out of my system and off of my mind.

Seriously, Bump?

I cannot believe that The Bump decided to do it's maintenance NOW. Don't they know that I'm up with a newborn baby and I need entertainment?!

I guess I'll go read a book or sumshit.

/endrant. 

SockMonkeySam and Family

Today is the memorial service and wake for a little boy named Zachary who died at 3 months old, late last week. He was the rainbow baby of one of the girls on the website The Bump, which I frequent, who I've never "met" and didn't know, but their story touched me deeply.

Today, my thoughts and prayers go out to Amye and her family. I can only say prayers for their strength and comfort on this difficult day.

If anybody is out there reading this, please say a little prayer for Amye and her family.