Nerves

I've got a bad case of the nerves on the eve of starting my new job. Logically, I KNOW I'll do fine. I KNOW that Cora will get used to being away from me and will be fine. I KNOW it will be good for both of us in the end. Logically. But, my mom brain is not logical. And I'm nervous!

I won't lie, I'm excited, too. It's gonna be nice to have adult conversations (not to mention earning money, that's nice too). But, but, my baby! I'm gonna miss my baby like crazy. I hope she misses me less than I miss her. I hope it's a good first day for all!

I got a job!

And not just any old job, a job that can easily turn into a career, doing something that I love, with people who respect me. Oh, and benefits, and sick leave, etc, etc. Bye bye, service industry! Hello, medical field!

Finally some good is happening to our family...'bout time, too. I was about to lose it.

Life.Is.INSANE!

So I haven't written in a while and I have to admit I feel pretty guilty...but there's been so much going on! Between school two days a week, working full time, and doing my new internship two days a week as well, I'm lucky to have time to catch up on my book club book, not to even mention keeping up with homework!

I'm happy to report that all is going well (for the most part)....School is school, lol it's going good but it's hard! Work just kinda sucks like always but there that is...and my internship is so awesome, what would make it perfect would be if it were only paid! But I keep telling myself this mantra: It will all be worth it in the end. I have to believe that.

Or I'd lose my damn mind.

UGH Sickness!

So I woke up this morning after 10 hours of sleep (yay me for sleeping early when I started feeling bad last night!)...and I'm sick! Sore throat, headache, body ache. It sucks. Thank god I don't have a temperature (I would be very upset should my temping be thrown off!).

I just want to lay back down and not get up. I feel so crappy, and I feel down and I just don't want to deal with anything today. Unfortunately, I have to go to work tonight, so that's not an option. I hate that I still work somewhere where calling in sick isn't an option. I can't wait until I finish school, so I can start looking for another job where I can have actual sick days, and vacation days, and benefits! God, I'm looking forward to the benefits. But in order to get a job like this, I have to finish school...which I'll never do if I don't go. I feel bad for skipping school today, but I really don't want to spread this sickness. This sucks...

Hopefully this day passes quickly so that I can enjoy my two days off!