SockMonkeySam and Family

Today is the memorial service and wake for a little boy named Zachary who died at 3 months old, late last week. He was the rainbow baby of one of the girls on the website The Bump, which I frequent, who I've never "met" and didn't know, but their story touched me deeply.

Today, my thoughts and prayers go out to Amye and her family. I can only say prayers for their strength and comfort on this difficult day.

If anybody is out there reading this, please say a little prayer for Amye and her family.

My Newest Obession

Can I just say I just discovered Adele (I'm late to the game, I know) and I LOVE her! She's such a great singer and she sings with such soul. I love it.

Right now I'm in love with "Set Fire to the Rain". I can't stop listening to it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xBcMKwbMEcQ

(Sorry I don't know how to make it clicky)

Amen...Finals are OVER!

You read that right...Finals are over! Thank you sweet baby Jesus! I made it through. This has been by far one of the hardest quarters of school I've ever gone through (and it was only two classes!) I can't honestly imagine how I'd have made it through the last three months if I had more than two classes. I am so happy, I'm literally breathing a sigh of relief (as much as I can breathe through my very congested nose)

I'm so excited to start the next quarter, if only because it's my LAST ONE! That's right, in just about three months time, I will be a college graduate! I'm so, so excited, and more than a little proud of myself. Through all of the struggles I've had in the last 4 years, I am still managing to graduate. And I'm actually contemplating staying on to finish my AA, so I can have a dual degree. I figure, I might as well while I'm still motivated! It's only six more classes, that's nothing. And having that extra degree will open me up to so many other opportunities. It's exciting.

So that's my exciting news for the day. Other than that, I'm still sick, currently got my butt parked on the couch in PJs waiting on M to get home in a few hours for an evening of dinner, movies and cuddling. Sounds like heaven to me!

UGH Sickness!

So I woke up this morning after 10 hours of sleep (yay me for sleeping early when I started feeling bad last night!)...and I'm sick! Sore throat, headache, body ache. It sucks. Thank god I don't have a temperature (I would be very upset should my temping be thrown off!).

I just want to lay back down and not get up. I feel so crappy, and I feel down and I just don't want to deal with anything today. Unfortunately, I have to go to work tonight, so that's not an option. I hate that I still work somewhere where calling in sick isn't an option. I can't wait until I finish school, so I can start looking for another job where I can have actual sick days, and vacation days, and benefits! God, I'm looking forward to the benefits. But in order to get a job like this, I have to finish school...which I'll never do if I don't go. I feel bad for skipping school today, but I really don't want to spread this sickness. This sucks...

Hopefully this day passes quickly so that I can enjoy my two days off!

Emotions

I hate emotions! Can I just say that out loud for a minute? I feel like it's taboo to admit that. My emotions have been everywhere this week, and I can't handle it. I'm so, so tired of not understanding why I'm all of the sudden mad, or crying. I want to be able to take a break, I want to shut off my emotions. I'm tired, I'm so tired.


Can I take a break from being me for a little while? Pretty please?
No? Okay.

Rant over.

New Year, New Look?

So I know this is like my fourth blog entry, but I'm still trying to decide how I want this blog to look. I really would like it to be a reflection of me: fun and kind of "trendy" but still unique, with just enough color. You know, simple, right?! I really liked the owl template I had but I didn't like the font of the text and I'm not tech savvy enough to know how to edit the HTML to fix that, lol.

So...Here we are. I like this so for now, zebra stripes it is! I feel kind of silly considering the fact that I don't think anyone even reads this...but a girl can dream!

Well, I'm off to finish my paper that is due tomorrow. Until next time...

Hello 2012

Well...Here we are, 2012! There were many times in the past year that I doubted I would make it this far. Quite a few times I thought I would just lay down and die, that I wouldn't be able to go on. But I was wrong! And I'm glad to be able to say that. I feel proud of myself that I haven't given up yet, not on myself, not on M, and not on life in general.

Now, I'm not big on resolutions. I find that I rarely am able to keep them, I get lazy, I get busy, whatever it may be. But I do have a few things that I want to focus on bettering within the next year. Those things include:

1. Paying off some of our debt. We plan to pay off our credit cards in 2012 (we have one each, but mine is maxed out!)
2. Saving more and spending less. This includes less impulse buying and a lot less eating out! We also really need to buckle down on saving for our wedding.
3. Finishing school! I am really, really close to graduating in April. If I don't fail any classes, or take any more time off, I will graduate college in April. And that is an amazing feeling!

I really hope that we are able to accomplish some of these goals, because that would make me feel really great. As of right now, I'm just trying to focus on that, and I'm putting one foot in front of the other to move forward. I'm trying to remind myself that I'm here on this earth for a reason, so I better not waste my time.